Lessons in Waiting
Dear reader, I will spill the beans…I am single and 32 years old. The years after my college graduation have been hard and I have struggled in waiting for God’s timing to be married. That said, in the last few years I have found a peace and contentment with my singleness. THEN, God told me to start praying for my future husband and preparing myself for marriage. I was excited when I first started praying. Hello future hubby, here I come! And now I continue to pray, prepare and……wait. In this current season of my life, the feelings of loneliness have returned and I wonder, God did you forget what you told me? The struggle has returned and I am not a fan! Fortunately, I’m blessed with amazing women in my life who have a similar struggle and we encourage each other through our pain, anger, impatience and frustration. I’m so blessed and I know I wouldn’t have made it this far without them. And just yesterday, I was blessed and honored to encourage another woman in her own waiting. I found all these words of encouragement falling out of my mouth. I had to smile at God because everything I was saying, was a reminder to me of what God told me (which I prayed for God to remind me what he told me) and the very things I needed to encourage myself. I remembered an old journal entry I’ve been meaning to post and decided I would do it today. I made it in 2011 about lessons I’ve learned about waiting. It is a good reminder for me of what I have learned about the importance of the waiting. At the end of the day, even if I don’t like it, waiting is how God prepares us for the future. I hope it encourages you.
LESSONS IN WAITING
(originally written 5/2/11)
- I realize I still need to focus more on God and putting Him first. I need to foster my desire on God instead of feeding my own desires for the things I’m waiting on.
- I need to be more humble about my accomplishments/blessings. My favor are NOT of my own doing. God has made a way for me.
- Hope is dangerous for the enemy because it fosters and strengthens my faith. I MUST keep hoping.
- I need to control things less and trust God more.
- I need to learn how to stop stroking my ego and fishing for compliments from others and be content within myself of what I do and let God praise me.
- God loves me and wants BIG happiness for me. More than I can imagine. I need to be content where I am and still hope for the future.
- I might deserve more, I might not, but God operates on grace and unconditional love. My works will never equal His blessings. I can’t work off my debt or be “good enough” to deserve more.
- I need to kill the “who would want lil’ ‘ol me” thoughts and let my confidence be unwavering. I might not be the right one for some guys, but I am the right one for the one that God has chosen for me.
- It doesn’t matter if I don’t get noticed by all the wrong guys. I only need attention from one right guy. Plus, I don’t want anymore drama from the wrong guys.
- I should consider lack of attention from guys who are not my husband as God’s protection and not God’s curse.